Dear Future Daughter:
1) When you’re at some party, chain smoking on the roof with some strange girl with blue hair and exorbitant large dark eyes, ask her about her day. I promise you, you won’t regret it. Often times you’ll find the strangest of people have the most captivating of stories to tell.
2) Please, never mistake desire for love. Love will engulf your soul, whilst desire will emerge as acid, slowly making it’s way through your veins, gradually burning you from the inside out.
3) No one is going to fucking save you, anything you’ve read or heard otherwise is bullshit.
4) One day a boy is going to come along who’s touch feels like fire and who’s words taste like vanilla, when he leaves you, you will want to die. If you know anything at all, know that it is only temporary.
5) Your mental health comes before school baby, always. If its midnight, and you have an exam the next day but your hands have been shaking for the past hour and a half and you’re not so sure you want to be alive anymore, pull out that carton of Ben and Jerry’s and afterwards, go the fuck to bed. So what if you get a 68% on the exam the next day? You took care of yourself and at the end of the day that will always come before a high test score. To hell with anyone who tells you differently.Abbie Nielsen (via narobe)
maybe the insecurities we feel on a daily basis aren’t based on the trivial things we blame them on, maybe it stems from something deeper. When you look at yourself in the mirror and hate the way you look, maybe it’s because of the time in middle school when the popular girls teased you because you didn’t look like them. or when you cry yourself to sleep because of what someone said or did, maybe it’s the combination of everything someone has said, not just the one. When you lie in bed at night, staring at the ceiling wondering when it is all going to fall apart again, maybe it’s not for fear or doubt in the people in your life, but you remembering the time that everyone else walked out on you when you needed them most. Maybe everything you feel on a daily basis isn’t based on a feeling of that moment, but maybe it’s your inner demons reminding you that they’re still there.
A day will come when you think yourself safe and happy, and suddenly your joy will turn to ashes in your mouth, and you’ll know the debt is paid.